I'm officially finished with whatever bullshit she wants to pull or try on and towards me. She's ripped open a can that she wish she didn't. I'm going to unleash a world of loneliness on her that make Pandora look like a defenseless child. Everything I've been feeling, all this pain, this hatred, loneliness and anything else that's decided to infest my body, is being turned and retaliated against, being attacked upon her as if she was the bearer of them all from the start. she's going to wish she never moved to this fucking town, it's too far now. There are no more morals, there is no keeping my mouth shut to be nice.

This... This is the art of destroying a soul.

location: My Room, My Computer mood: aggravated music: Five Finger Death Punch - White Knuckles. tags: childish, destroying., finished, pandora, soul

for those of you who were on most of the job sites i was on in cobourg, and have a decent memory, i worked on a house, did some water proofing there, also did the front porch with flag stone.. the owner of the house, was ?polish? , and also, i swear he was a homosexual, nothing against him, but he's tad bit creepy. anywho, someone also visited me to throw my sweater in the dirt and then give it to me and act as if nothing had happened ;) :P. well, to finish my tale, i will be working in cobourg soon, to do more waterproofing on his house, and well frankly, i want to see all of you, i miss you guys soo much, sucks.. umm, msn me, and i'll tell you when i'll be up there (if i know) and what not, maybe we can all do lunch? depending on how much water proofing we're doing, and how many people come to work, the job could be anywheres from 1 day to 4 or 5 days. or anything in between. so ya, get a hold of me, i'd say text me, but my chargers broken, going to buy a new one soon though. umm, ya, get a hold of me asap. miss you guys all bunches, love you all!!

P.S. I'll be expecting my present missy.. *shakes fist* lol

Love ya <3 (  <--  emo heart )

location: My Room, My Computer mood: bouncy music: Protest The Hero - Bone Marrow tags: cobourg, polish, sweater, waterproofing

umm, ya, i took myself off fb cause i don't really have any friends atm, and don't care to use fb, just sucking away my time that i could be doing.. nothin else i suppose, but none the less, i just don't care to be on it. umm other things too going on, i think i've figured out what the dark spirit in my room was. and ya, you can ask me about that if you like, and anything else that's going on, just come on msn and ask away.

Latez..

location: My Room, My Computer mood: meh music: None atm, dunno why. tags: carissa, dodge caliber, kool kids, mike, nate, tough kids

so0o.. i didn't end up going down to Oshawa, as you all probably know. my niece and nephew came down to visit, so i get to watch them, i'm a little upset and irritated at both Nate and Olivia. Nate because he doesn't ever tell me anything, the only way i hear things is through other people, and then i have to ask him. and even then he doesn't tell me much. Then there's the fact that (as far as i know) Nate got a drive up there from his dad, and there was only room for one other person, so guess who goes with him (remember, this is as far as i know) Mike, not me, mike, who may or may not have even met Olivia in person, and as far as i knew, not trying to be conceted but i was under the impression that Megan and Olivia wanted to see Nate and Me, not mike, i don't have a problem with mike seeing them, it has nothing to do with me frankly, but when he gets privledge over me to see my friends, that pisses me off. but whatever, i've been out of the loop for the whole weekend from the start. i did know things about it, but i always found out last, and there were parts that people forgot to tell me.. which is another reason why i'm irritated with the whole weekend. Then i'm irritated with Olivia, i miss her, i want to see her, but then she can't come down here, okay, that may not be her fault, but then it's, instead of making plans for some other time, it's how about you guys try to come down to Oshawa, again. and i don't mind that, frankly, i love taking the train. buses too, lol. but when i find out that we "may" be going down there to see them, and then i don't find out for sure until like the day before, it's a little hard to figure things out, then with what i mentioned above, it makes things more "bothersome". so what it came down to in the end was, Nate - "Me and mike are going to get a ride with my dad, you can take the 2 buses and train, and we'll see you down there." mind you i phraised it a little differently, but that essentially the way it turned out to be. so i'm a little irritated about the whole thing. next time, i think i should be involved in the planning process, so things get sorted out properly, and well, that way i know what the hell is going on. Now keep in mind people, I still love you all, lol, i'm just bothered, i would have loved to come, but i didn't know what was happening. I love you to megan, lol, i just not irritated with you.

And Nate and Olivia, i'm not mad, just wish things could have worked out a little better. Miss you two (Megan and Olivia) and i'm kick your ass Nate. <3

location: Mommy's Laptop, (Basement) mood: Chillz music: Jon & Kate Plus 8 (ew.. save me) tags: irritated, megan, nathan, olivia, oshawa

k guys, i need your opinions on something. and it's not necissarily shallow, but it's not nice either

k, so a few days ago i met this girl (jennifer), randomly on facebook, cause we were both commenting on a friend's picture, andrew. anyways.. long story short, she added me on facebook and msn and i've known her for like.. 6 days? lol. the day after i "met" her online, lol, i started talkin to her sister (Jessica), she added me cause she saw me on webcam and thought i was hott. not being cocky, thats what they told me. her sister (Jessica), is my age, Jennifer is my brothers age. now here's the pickle, i like both of them, and i find them both attractive. but i think i'm starting to like jessica more. i'm not ready for a relationship right now, as some of you may already know, but i don't want to give the impression to both of them that i've got the hotts for them, or i like both of them, and then one day just be like, bamb, with one of them, and then the other freaks, and then they both hate me. the girl i met first, Jennifer, she wants me, like hardcore, she's openly told me, she wants to fuck me, she's a virgin though, and if i'm just having casual sex in my life right now (as my choice), i really don't want her first to be with some guy (she just met) and then he doesn't want a relationship, and she becomes attached. now i know that some girls that read this will argue against what i'm about to say, but they're wrong.

when a girl loses her v-card to a guy, quite often, very often, they get like.. super attached, and i don't want her to get attached, and i'm all like, it was just casual sex, thanks but i don't wanna date you. and then she like.. hates me, and all this shit gets stirred up, and then i'm hated, and when one girl hates you, alot of girls hate you, and i don't want shit to go like that. so far i love them both, so i dunno.. let me know your opinions guys..

comment on here if you like.. or just msn me

Love ya
Latez

location: My House, one week left here.. :( mood: chipper music: msn pinging tags: andrew, casual sex, jennifer, jessica

Here i am again, lost in my own thoughts
I spend so much of my time in here
You would think i knew it very well
But here i am again, lost in my own thoughts

Here i wonder, lost in my own thoughts
I'm not looking for an exit, or an entrance
I just wish to know where the paths lead
But alas, here i am, lost in my own thoughts

Here i lay, lost in my own thoughts
I feel as if I'm as far as i can go, my limit
Yet i know I'm not even half way through
And still i wonder why i am, lost in my own thoughts

I get up, stand up, though i am lost
And look around, and there i see it coming
Another object flying at me, another event about to happen
Do i stand there and embrace it?
Or do i run from it in fear
Do i man up and stand tall to these days ahead

No...
I lay here shivering like a defenseless little child
Unsure what to do, who i am, or where i'm going
Always unsure how to act, how to behave
Yet always so confident, so sure
Why is it that my life is such an oxymoron
When all I truly want is stability and normalcy

Here i am, so calm and so still
Pushed to my limits again, unsure of what is to come
But this pain, this torment, this fear, it's what drives me
To stand up again, to take another hit, to combat what is yet to come
I will stand tall, i will not give in, i will not break.

I stand...
Tall and brave
Scared and unsure
Lost in my own thoughts...




Tell me what you guys think.. honest opinions, just reply on here and tell me what you think.

location: My Room, My Computer :P mood: calm music: The Silence of My Thoughts tags: lost in my own thoughts

well.. today was a great day, although i nearly died, it turned out pretty damn good.

Nathan and I went on an adventure, He showed up at 6 this morning, and we hopped on a bus towards newmarket. bus was nice and late, so they radioed ahead and got our next bus to wait for us. I think the guy ripped me off for $20, but i can't remember.

we got down there, hopped on to the next bus down to union station. when we got there, the train we needed to take was still there, but we didn't bother to get on, cause we would have ended up stuck at the Oshawa station for an hour, and that place effing blows. so we walked around t.dot. molested some brass statues.. i saw the CN tower in person for the first time (ZOMG, i know!!) still have yet to go in it. then we headed back to the station and hopped on our train down to Oshawa.

we got down there, got off, walked in the completely wrong direction for about 10 min, then turned around. asked for directions, and got em. climbed a hill, crossed over on coming traffic, freaky and trippy as all hell! walked all the way down to the Oshawa shopping centre, and i stopped Nathan from walking into traffic, again T_Y, and then a car drives by with the rear passenger window open, and there sits megan stairing at me, and she's all like.. "TrEvOr!?@!?@", and i look at her and i'm like, "MEgAn!!@!@?" and so i end up not so sneakaly meeting up with her in old Navy (i'm a pro at every mall alright!) and she runs up and i give her a hugee hug, made her face go red!! :D, and then got her in shit, lol, i think. then we went and met up with Olivia, chilled around the mall, then went out side and wandered hoping to find the roller rink she wanted to go to. and guess what we find.. THE ROLLER-EFFING-RINK!

so we went in, and we had to wait, so we sat and talked for a little bit. Then Nathan, and Olivia, went and got roller skates and went out onto the rink. i sat and chilled, and got like uber depression starting (they both kinda noticed it earlier, but i was just thinkin bout stuffs) and then i said to myself "Fuck this, i'm here to go on an adventure and have fun, so i went and got skates on and went to have fun! and i had a blast doing laps around Nate and Olivia. Mind you they did have the old school skates on, and i had better ones, but it was still loads of fun.

i dragged Olivia around the rink quite a few times, don't think she liked it, kept complainin and made me stop  numerous times, however, she kept letting me do it, so i dunno.

then they both demanded that they wanted to leave (okay not demanded, but they wanted to go) so we left, and almost got lost, but Nate asked some random for directions. got back to the mall.

i started feelin really messed up, light headed, head was spinnin, starvin, so i ate something, and i felt worse. i started to crash from no sleep and from an energy drink i had. my blood sugar dropped down really low. so i went and grabbed me some chocolate bars. then shortly after that it was time to say goodbye. so i gave her a hug, a kiss on the neck. and told her i missed her.. and then i had to wait. while Nathan got to go and meet Livie's rents. i passed out numerous times sitting at the table. and then Nathan came around again, and then we left
caught the train back to union
waited
caught the bus from union to newmarket
caught the bus from newmarket to home
and here i sit. waiting for life to change

oh, and Olivia and Megan want me and Nate to come down for semi, the day after my b-day. i want to, and i hope i can.


i think i might write another song, give me something to do.

location: My Room, My Computer :P mood: depressed music: Nothing tags: bus, mall, megan, olivia, semi, train

just found this funny and interesting.

Capricorn: Change is coming - can you feel it? Look around and you'll notice it starting.

Trevor,
You may get interesting phone calls today.

two different horoscopes for me today, lol, i found it interesting, lol.

well, not much to post right now, i'm hungry though, i think i'ma go have more soup, latez peoples, love you <3
 

location: My Room, My Computer :P mood: bouncy music: The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus - MGA tags: capricorn, funny, hungry, interesting

Merry Christmas!

Fuck Off!

location: My Room, My Computer :P mood: annoyed music: Paramore - Pressure tags: fuck off, merry christmas

Love you all

Latez

location: My Room, My Computer :P mood: sore music: The Devil Wears Prada tags: back, daddy, haliburton, hang out, party

WARNING! DO NOT READ THIS IF YOU DON'T HAVE THE TIME, OR YOU DON'T CARE TO READ IT.

This time around it's coming on harder and faster then before. but that's the way depression works in case you didn't know, it doesn't always come on harder or faster than before, but it can, you can go up so high, and be the happiest person in the whole world, but, it can go right back down, farther than where you were before. and because you were just so happy, your even more depressed, that it's all gone, that you had it and you fucked up yet again.  and knowing that your farther than you were ever before adds to that fact. everything looks so much harder to get out of, and to get through. and the sad thing is, it's not like i'm lost, and i don't know what might help, or what to do, to try and help, or even at the least make the best out of it, if not lessen it. I JUST SIMPLY DON'T CARE. :D i really don't, fuck it. seriously, whats the point of getting better, and then being happy, and then something goes wrong, and then another,. and another. then my world crashes again, then i feel worse than i do now> why the fuck don't i just get used to it instead. i put to much trust and faith into people, and they either purposly or, accidentally throw that out the window, and step all over me. and who gets hurt out of it all. them? ha, if only. no, it's usually me. and you know what, that may sound selfish, but you know what. go fuck yourself, you want to feel this, you want to be so depressed you physically put yourself in pain, you have no idea how much the power of the brain has over the body. people think that depression only causes physical pain by shit like, ulsers, and getting sick. yes that does happen, but there is so much more. i give myself cold flashes, and the funny thing out it is, that i'll be sweatingly warm when i get them. and yes, i'm making "sweatingly" up, don't like it, talk a walk. you know when you sleep, and you wake up from like a nightmare or something, terrified, freezing, yet your covered in sweat. now try to deal with that, while your awake. terrified, cold, and covered in sweat. try to explain that to people so the don't think your some freak teen going through menopause. and i know i spelt it wrong, once again, take a walk. in the same respect, hot flashes, but it's worse than that, your hotter than you can handle, which for me is alot, i'm normally warm. extremely warm. but this s a whole other layer of warm. and along with that warm, about an inch under your skin, theres this seperated feeling, like your not apart of your body, like the skin around you is a heated blanket turned up way too high. and forceably placed upon you, and shocker, YOU CAN'T EFFING GET OUT! and as if thats not bad enough already, along with those other horrible feelings, the back of your neck, and shoulds, the muscles there feel almost as if they're contracting, yet they don't move. and not only are the contracting, they're squeezing way to tightly, tighter and tighter. it hurts.. so much more than you can imagine. if you've ever pulled a muscle, it feels similar to that. and instead of being terrified, your scared.. scared of whats happeneing to you. Now ya all that shit is so so bad, boo hoo. wanna know how fucked up i am, i can force all of that, at will to happen. it's pathetic, and i know i can do this, because i do it. it's like my happy little emo time, and the best part about it all, doesn't leave a single visable scar. not a single one. i feel like some sick masocist because i enjoy the pain on some sick, sick level. i do, i hate it, and i wish it would stop, but i bring it on myself, it's almost like i want the pain, but i don't. i have arguements like this in my head daily. and to clarify, no i don't have multiple personalities. if you think so, tell me, so i can kick the shit out of you. cause i don't have multiple personalities.  Then theres the sleep thing. it's almost like the whole word around me speeds up, but at the same time slows down. my person days last longer than yours. i can stay up longer, and at times, which is most of the time, i can't sleep because of this, it's like trying to go to bed hours before you need to, or, going to sleep liek 3 hours after you've worken up from 8 hours of great sleep. and then when i sleep. the same thing, i can sleep for 20 hours and wake up tired, and now i know what some of you are thinking. "it's because your over tired", fuck that shit in the ass with a dildo. that may be true for others, but for me it's not, and i know this to be true, because if i get the chance and i fall back asleep, i can sleep again, for hours. now tell me thats normal. now all of this is wonderful and dandy, but this time around, i'm really not caring to be comforted, hell, only 2 people have noticed, and only one cares, well, seems to care. the first, is chris. he somewhat cares i suppose. but i guess he just doesn't know what to say, and me not beign very helpful doesn't make things better. the other, is someone i don't think any of you know about, lol. it's Jenny. she's a wonderful girl. (OH ~ FUCKING ~ NOES!! ANOTHER GIRL!!) go fuck yourself. she lives in sask, so go hump a goat. she noticed right away something was up. she cared. she tried, and i guess on some level got through because i believe her that she cares. but like i said. i really don't care about "getting better". along with all of this, i'm going to be secluded from the internet and talkin on the phone from this monday to friday. i'm working up in haliburton with my dad. we're staying the week up there at a motel. then i come back for the weekend, then up again. and then come back for the weekend. and hopefully go up again for the 2-3 days right before christmas so i can make as much money as possible. so ya, and to make being secluded up there even better, my phone has hit the shitter. the service light stays on (even though it's set to off) the vribration in it works when it feels like it. and, here's the kicker; as long as theres a battery in the phone, and that battery has even a drop of life in it, the phone will turn itself on, everytime, without fail. and you know when your phone turns itself off when it completely dies, but you can attempt to turn it back on, and the screen comes on and yada yada for a few secs, it'll do that, by itself, over and over and over and over again, until that battery is COMPLETELY dead. and because of this, the battery life is shorting extremely fast. more and more everyday it's on. so it doesn't even last a full day being, at the moment, it's bound to get worse. and i have no money to buy a new one, yet*, and the phone i'm getting is awesome, but, bell doesn't have any instock. so, i'll have to get payed, then order it, then wait. yay. T_Y

BUT WAIT!!! LIFE GETS EVEN BETTER FOR THE LOW LOW PRICE OF, LIFE FUCKING HATES YOU, SO IT'S FREE!! my whole fucking family is stressed. and my mom, is depressed too (where i get it from, w00t.) and if i'm like this, i'm sure she's just as bad if not worse. and to make it an even sweeter deal, SHE'S ON HER FUCKING PERIOD!! she's snapping left right and centre. it fucking blows, and just puts everyone in a worse mood, and don't think i'm blaming her, cause i'm not. i'm just saying, it makes everything worse for that time. and me, it pisses me off and launches me deeper, into my wonderful, colourless, hopeless, abyss.

i'm so lonely, and it's only going to get worse, working up there with my dad, not because of him or anything, but, ill have no internet to talk to anyonre, and well, no phone, unless you call my cell, and want to deal with the long distance chagres, cause i'm done with that shit for a life time. and i'm sorry to the friends that are having difficult times in they're lives, i'll still help, and i know i can make a difference and makre you feel better. doing that for a friend is easy. and i want you people to be happy. but i wont be able to help that for the next two weeks other than on the weekends. if you wanna talk to me, feel free to, i don't really care either or. whether you do or you don't is your own decision, i can't and wont hold it agaisnt you. anyways, i'm ending this now, i could still go on, but this is long enough, i'll keep somethings to myself for now, maybe i'll post tmoz night before i go to sleep.

Latez people.

location: My Room, My Computer :P mood: depressed music: Thousand Foor Krutch - Last Words tags: chris, dad, depression, haliburton, jenny, long as hell, mom

well, as you can probably guess by the tags and my subject title, i'm pissed :D.

at everything, i don't care what anyone has to say about it, or me, everyone fucking lies. seriously, i'm not saying i don't lie, but not like i've been lied to lately, it's pissing me off. if your just going to talk bullshit to me then don't talk at all, cause i don't wanna fucking hear it. seriously.

Just lies after lies after lies with some of you people. i used to lie quite a bit myself, when i was like 12, GROW THE FUCK UP, can't you retards see that lying just fucks up everyone and everything around you! don't you effing get that!?!?

Just people from every aspect of my life, if your going to fucking lie to my face, about something that i find important, FUCK OFF, I don't want to hear it. if i wanted to hear liez, i'd talk to my fucking ex custy alright.

location: My Room, My Computer :P mood: pissed off music: none atm tags: fuck off, lies, pissed

In other news, there has been some rather funny facebook drama happening on a picture, of mine, no surprise there, lol, i find it rather humoursome and i'm sure you guys shall too, so I am attaching a url link to it, anyone on here should be able to see it, i'm sure i have you guys on fb, if not, tell me and i'll add ya up, lol, let me know what you think about that pic, more in particular, the comments under it, lol, oh, and the tags :D, i didn't tag any of them, MissSamm did, rofl, well i'm out, love you all <3

Latez

location: My Room, My Computer :P mood: bouncy music: Escape The Fate - New CD :D tags: facebook, grilled cheese, katchup, mom, samm, vicki

well today was a rather boring and bothersome day.. not much to talk about really....
school was boring, same thing again.. SSDD... ended up coming home and changing and going to newmarket cause my mom had night school, so me and my brother went to the mall for the night, my status on fb told people to come and hang out, but nobody would, and i texted people, and still nobody could or would come T_Y.. so it was rather boring, i did however have $100, but i didn't spend a dime at the mall, we just walked around and window shopped basically, we both had money, but never bought anything, the only thing my brother bought was some food, i didn't even buy any, lol, we went to futureshop before it closed (9 pm) and we ended up going half on g-hero 4, with the game and new guitar, it's my bro's christmas gift, it was the only way i'd okay to buy it. so he's out of the way. i just have my mommy, the faja, my niece, nephew, sis, bro-in-law, Sarah (dreamy Girl), Samm and Vicki. which from one respect is bad, cause i don't have a job, and thats alot of people to buy for, but, i'm applying at one of my fav stores, MINDGAMES :D, so that would be kool, but i'm temped not to, cause i'm most likely going to be working mad amounts during christmas holidays, like, most of them, cause i'll make alot of money workin with my dad during christmas break, like $150 a day, lol, at least. and then trying to go shopping last min i think, or, just taking them all out on boxing day for all the sales, so they can pick out whatever they want, especially Rachel and Brandyn, i'm their uncle, i has to spoil them. my dad i'll just take to princess auto and let him get basically whatever he wants/needs. my mom, i'll take her to a jewlery store or something, lol. she likes jewlery, lol, what women don't ;), JOKES. i dunno bout Sarah, Samm, or Vicki, Vicki, a necklace, Samm and Sarah, i'm a little lost for.. i'm thinking a necklace for Sarah too (it's not like i don't have any idea's or anything, that just happens to be a good idea for both, i know Vicki wants one from me, and the other, i'm sure she'd like it, i kinda need to get her something nice.. :$ (ask if i haven't explained the me and Sarah situation to you) other than that, i think that's all, i'd get something for rob, one i don't know what to get him, 2, i'm pretty sure he's not going to get me anything (not that i care for material items, cause i don't particularly do, but i don't want to make him feel obligated to get me something) and besides, we spend money on each other alllllll the time. i'm looking forward to workin with my dad, i'm going to try and convince my rents to let me take a week off early school before christmas vacation so i can work with faja, i'll make sure i get my school work so i can do it at the hotel. and make an extra like, $750 before deductions :P, thats right, $750 a week, get jealous ;). and that would be perfect, that right there would cover most of my christmas gifts, if not all. i'm so doing that idea, i'll make sure of it, and i'll even get off of my ass and do more school work. in total i can make just shy of $1800 workin with my dad this christmas holiday, at most, and thats including that week off of school. so i'm totally going with that idea now, i have to. thats too much money for me to pass up, and with my lack of money and christmas so close, i can't say no, and if i have enough left over, i can go buy my new phone with a boxing day sale on too, i love it!! it's offically decided in my mind, that that's what i'm doing. :D

location: My Room, My Computer :P mood: All Nighter music: The Veronicas - Untouched tags: $1800, bobert, christimas, family, futureshop, jesse, le bored, mind games, samm, sarah, school, ssdd, upper canada mall, vicki, working with my dad

so, this is night number two, this weekend was pretty good i suppose, it was kinda bad earlier, kept gettin ditched left right and centre, but oh wells, i was alright, bored and a tad bit lonely, but i was fine. was supposed to get smashed tonight, but well, it didn't happen, not nearly enough left for me to get hammed, cause there's nothing left, i was the dd, of sorts. i drank some coolers, and some purple drank, but didn't even get a buzz, so i just chilled, made sure everyone else was having fun, that sorta thing, rob started bein an ass once matt was here, kept bein rude to me, so i talked to him after and we got things straightened out, and we're good.. i'm uber bored, everyone went to bed, and i'm still sittin here, wide awake, no one to talk to, and not a thing to do, so i figured i'd come on here and post, Out of nowhere tonight Ocean started texting me, which was a total surprise, because well, long story short, we had the hotts and such for each other, and then i wanted to hang out with her alot, and i walked her to school, and home from school, and well, it came off as stalkerish, but i had no idea, so she told me that she just didn't like me anymore, and didn't say why. Well, tonight i talked to her, and cleared things up farther, we were already "good" i guess, but i clarifed myself and told her how bad i felt (again), and then just said we should start over in general, we weren't dating or anything, so i just meant in general, cause she's really kool, and i like hangin out with her, and well i still totally have the hotts for her, so as it stands at the moment, things are looking up in a few different ways, i'm so bored. tmoz should be interesting, a bunch of hung over peoples, and me, w00tness.. T_Y, well i've rambled on long enough, luff you all
 

Latez

location: Rob's house mood: alone again music: From First To Last - The Latest Plague tags: bored, ditched, matt, ocean, purple drank, rob, smashed

so this is our party weekend, rob and i among others, Rob's parents have gone away for a week again, so we party it up, so far the weekend's been good, last night was pretty bad, lets just say, i ended up huggin the toilet last night for a good while, and then just crashed on rob's bed, i was not up for any movements whatsoever, today was an alright day i suppose. bored for the most part, rob's off with his girlfriend (michelle) and Nathan, gone to matt's house, cause Olivia came up. I would have liked to see her, but well, not really my place i suppose, she came up to see Matt and Nathan. And i'm fine with that, lol, and i have her "christmas gift" here, lol, i brought it because rob said something about them coming over here, so i figured i'd bring it just incase, oh wells, she'll get it some other way. so here i am, sittin here, uber bored.. Chris is here, but he's upstairs with bobbi goin at it, which reminds me, it's been like 2 months since i've gotten laid.. it kinda sucks, i'm not huge on sex, but all the dips and crap i've been going through, some sex wouldn't be a bad thing right now in the slightest. anywho, i'm sittin here, textin Steph, and i'm uber bored.. and it sucks, i wish Vicki could have come down, i would have loved that, i haven't seen her in like 9 months, which sucks, April 9th is the last time i saw her, ugh, i misses her, but she's grounded right now, otherwise she probably would be here right now, ugh, that would have been awesome, gettin trashed with Vicki, ugh, maybe it's a good thing that she's not here though, cause well, her and i would be all over each other, and i'm sure that would bug rob a bit, unless he was gettin some, cause i'm sure with drinks and such in us or not, we'd end up doin somethin, she's not a whore, just to clarify for those that may misread this, her and i have always been crazy about each other, from the first time we talked, and we still are, any time we're together, it's hard to keep us away from the other, she's awesome, i can't wait for her to come down and meet everyone.. anywho, that would have been fun, but no, she couldn't come so that idea was killed. so i'm sitting here blasting music, bored out of my tree, tonight will be interesting though, cause we're all gettin tanked with purple drank, and then goin in the hottub again, it'll be fun, well i'm going to go find something else to kill my time, luff you all
 

latez

location: Rob's comp, at Rob's house mood: blah music: Bullet for My Valentine - My Fist, Your Mouth. Her Scars tags: bobbi, bobert, chris, hottubbin, matt, michelle, nathan, olivia, party weekend, purple drank, steph, vicki

I'm chillin at rob's tonight, spendin the night, his rents are gone for a week, so it's all chillzorz at rob's house, , and me were all here just chillin like villians. And then me and rob went back to my place so i could change, (was still in my uniform), and then we went to Domino's to pick up some spicy buffolo Chicken Kickers, they're spicy, and i love em. we then went to mc.D's, and got food, i payed all in quarters, :P, $9.03 in quarters, lol. went back to the house, they all mooched from us, then we went back to Mc.D's cause they wanted to get some, so Samm and i chiiled in the Play Place, (ya we're kool like that, got a problem? :P ) then we left, Josh left, then Samm's mom came and picked her up, and then rob ended up going to bed after we watched a bunch of really depressing videos, so we jumped in the hottub, we had all decided that we were going to get outof the pool and roll around in the snow, pat whimps out, chris gets out and falls (it looked awfully like he meant to) i kept going, and rolled around in the snow, ballin idea, it was so much fun, and for those of you the know how much i like the cold, that right there, was awesome. so we kept tryin to get Chris to grow some ballz, and he wouldn't do it, so whateve, (he bitched at me for it later), we ended up going back into the house, then we were playing SKATE, and we were having a blast, then we start watchin a movie, and Steve's buddy comes down and says he's going to bed so we need to leave. so we didn't get to watch the movie. and now i'm sitting here, bored.. and alone and i wanna talk to someone, but nobodies really online, the ones that are, aren't responding to me, so i think they're just in bed.. umm.. ya, thats about it, i'm getting kinda tired, so i think i'm going to find a place to crash.. nighty night all, had a pretty damn good time tonight boyz, luvz ya all.
 

Latez

location: Rob's House mood: sleep eludes me.. music: The Circus in me head... tags: chris, hottubbin, josh, patty, rob, samm, skate, sleep

Well, i got to school a little late, but thats not entirely my fault. I missed the school bus, so i had to wait for the YRT (local transit round these parts :P) but it doesn't come around my house until 9:07, school starts at, 8:55, therefore, epic fail. So i got to school and i went to the library and played on the computers, waisting time basically, then i decided to go check if Mrs.Barker was here today, she normally isn't in on wednesdays, her and i both know that, but i thought i'd look anyways, so on the way to the office, guess who walks out of guidance, MRS.BARKER. so i talked to her and she asked if i wanted to talk to her then, so i said ya, and we went in and talked.. and talked... and talked, lol, and i explained to her all the times i've been screwed over by the school, and told both sides, and took my blame where i needed to, and she knows i wasn't being all like, *the whole worlds against me, oh noes*, lol and then we discussed how much i hated my one english class because it's the third time i've taken the course.. and i told her about both other times how because of things out of my control i got screwed over. and we discussed actions to be taken to change certain things in my life, and what not, more a less about school stuff, and we talked shortly about Custy, and well we talked all the way through first period and through more than half of second

I got to the cafe and did some work, and told him why i was late, and he understood and didn't give me shit, i swear to god, Mr.K thinks of me like his own son, lol, anyways, he told me that tmoz i'm running the cafe again, but with no help from the teachers at all. YAWN!! CAKE-WALK. should be easy, as long as everyone shows up, they all work fine for me so it should be fine. umm, went to english and just sat there, didn't do much of anything, went out for lunch, which i hung out with Chris and Bobbi

UBER DEATH

i had no one else to chill with so i chilled with them, chris gave me a dollar so i could by candy, yay dollarama!! umm, went to math, and listened to Mr.Brown teach for about 12 min, then went to sleep, woke up halfway through class, and looked over to see Wade sleeping right next to me, rofl, so i went right back to sleep, woke up and caught the bus home

at school today, 2 kids got charged today, for smoking in the bus shelter, it's illegal, $150 fine, anywho, i thought that was rather funny, smoking just alot more expensive for those two, lol

i'm uber happy cause i got my wife Samm to start postin oh here, cause i find it helps with stress. she read back on my old posts, about first meeting her, lol, she thought they were quite cute, :S i unno, lol, anywho, she's on here now, and i think it'll help her, and that way i can keep in touch with her cause her ass is never on msn, bitch.., anywho, i've rambled on long enough, latez people, luff ya all

location: My Room, My Computer :P mood: calm music: Random on my Itunes tags: bobbi, bus, chris, k, mr, mrs.barker, samm

K, so i totally forgot a whole bunch of stuff to post :P, lol, last night, my mom was driving through town, and guess which fat ugly custy bitch she saw filling up her car, you guessed right, it was CUSTY!!, my mom turned to my brother, who was in the car, and said gee, should we turn around and throw snowballs at her, my brother of course agreed and said that he wanted to smack her across the face. i was like, WTF didn't you guys do it!! lol,  my mom and my brother, and my sister, and my brother in law, and my daddy, and well everyone hates her, and apprently she told will that i hit her, if i find out she said that, i'm letting Samm, and Vicki go loose, they'll get her for me, cause i loves them and loves me!! :D    D:

well thats it for this one, don't want to write too much in one day, oh guys, question, do you prefer them long or short? the posts, let me know

location: My Room, My Computer :P mood: cheerful music: still none, forgot to put it on, :S tags: custy, samm, snowball, vicki